“I am a runner. That’s what I do. That’s who I am. Running is all I know, or want, or care about.” -Jessica, protagonist of The Running Dream
Being a runner, it’s only appropriate that I read this book. And wow. I was not disappointed.
Told in first person by sixteen year old Jessica, The Running Dream begins with the talented high school track star in the hospital. The survivor of a brutal school bus accident, Jessica is lucky to be alive: one of her teammates is not so fortunate, having died at the scene. But Jess desperately wishes she could trade places with her fallen teammate, now that she is a “BK amputee:” Jessica’s right leg from the knee down had to be amputated, due to damaged sustained from the horrid event. Along with battling the physical agony of phantom pains, Jessica’s mentality, her very being, is shattered. Convinced she’ll never be able to run again, much less walk, Jess is in denial that her life will ever improve. Once home, she physically struggles to adjust to functioning with a missing limb: tasks once never given a thought to, such as going up the stairs, stepping into the shower, feel like monumental obstacles. The talented athlete must now rely on others to help her.
Jessica’s long, arduous process of recovery is made real; Van Draanen has obviously done her research regarding amputees, prosthetics, physical therapy, etc. Readers easily sympathize with Jessica as she attends physical therapy and gets fitted for a prosthetic: “I have to learn how to clean it […] Learn to massage it and desensitize it […] Learn not to vomit at the sight of it.” For Jessica, life might as well be over. Knowing she’ll never be the same, physically, she feels like a freak. An outsider. Returning to school as she now is seems impossible. Cruel even.
But perspective comes into play. The novel excels not just in describing Jessica’s mental and physical anguish, but also in regarding how the accident and Jessica’s condition affect others. Seething in depression and loathing, she comes to grips with reality when she overhears her parents discussing mounting medical bills. Terrified of financial crisis, Jessica begins to panic, but her track team, and eventually the whole community, step up to help fundraise and alleviate the financial burden.
But the novel is more than about receiving support from others: it is a story of outreach, inclusion, and positive perspective. Via the emotional support of her team and track coach, Jessica discovers how other amputees can and are able to run again with the use of specialized prosthetics. The cost alone for such a piece is daunting, but once again Jessica’s team, school and community help make Jessica’s “running dream” a reality. As she adapts to walking and eventually running with her new leg, so too does her mentality adjust: for the better. Struggling to catch up on missed assignments, Jessica strikes a friendship with Rosa, a girl she has overlooked up until now. Assigned to sit next to each other in math class, Rosa reaches out to Jessica via written notes, making her feel less alone. Jessica quickly learns that Rosa was born with cerebral palsy, and has been in a wheelchair her whole life. As Rosa congratulates her on soon receiving her new leg, Jessica realizes “that I am lucky” and “that I will stand on my own again.”
Grateful to Rosa for not only helping her with math homework, but with her perspective on life, Jessica crafts an ambitious plan to make one of Rosa’s wishes come true: to understand the sensation of what it is to run. So she begins training for the local River Run, a 10 mile event. Planning to push Rosa in her wheelchair for the whole course, Jessica remains undaunted in her goal: in that people will see Rosa, and “not her condition.” What follows is by far of the most uplifting moments not just within the book, but one of the most soul sustaining moments I have read in a long while.
This is a book anyone can appreciate. Van Draanen drives home the point that while you cannot control everything that happens to you in life, you can determine your reaction, your outlook. This book is not about tragedy, but of triumph. For those readers who ran or run track, you’ll more than appreciate Jessica’s description of pushing through “rigor mortis bend,” the “place in the 400-meter race where every cell of your body locks up;” of grinding through the pain and struggle, to the finish line.
~LMC
The Running Dream by Wendelin Van Draanen, Ember, 2011, 332 pages